Help me! I'm drowning in the selfdoubt!!!! Meeeeew!

*Walks in and sets a very large set of weighing scales on a table in the middle of the room*

So I woke up today, talked to Dee...and turned on the TV which happened to be the exact moment Avatar was on. Luck of the Irish....or in this case Russian....Russian Princess. I did miss the entire marathon of Avatar 'cause Nany wanted me to go to the balloon lift off with her, Barb, Denise, and this annoying spoiled brat named Nic. I made the ultimate sacrifice and went. I wanted to spend time with Nany 'cause I was hanging out with mom all week and didn't come home untill she was sleeping.

The balloon lift off was nice....alot of people. I hung out with Denise for a while. We stayed and watched fireworks, then got rained on by falling ash. I'm still picking it out of my hair. We came home. As soon as I walked in the door I saw the remote control laying on the chair and immediately longed to reverse time and watch that marathon!

That isn't the most important thing on my mind lately. I'm too embarrassed to tell you what that is right now. Sorry, didn't you know that I was The Great Strategist Shidosha? Anyways, I'm not entirely sure if this chaos is resurfacing becuase of the higher energies supposedly brought on to Earth by lightworkers last Thursday. *Shrugs* I'm so down about this I don't even want to deal with the metaphysical questions right now. If it is because of that, I just wanna tell you Lightworkers: "Damn guys......TELL me before you start that shit!!"

*The left side of the scales in the middle of the room rises upwards, whereas the right side plummets to the bottom*

Long day tomorrow....